The first one, I started to alleviate logical reasoning of things and used some of my 'heart' instead. It made me realize that certain things can't be solved by exact measurements, God gave us the finest gift of all and that is love ...and soul ...and faith, and to be able to value discreetness is not only by being capable of concluding logically, but also to conquer with affection.
The second one, I started to have problem with my brain. The whole problem is... IT WON'T STOP THINKING. When I'm on my own, I always wonder things like why in modern culture (in some of my juvenile culture) hipsterism is considered wise and cool, how come Graham Bell invented telephone, how to make the whole internet, how to prevent Indonesia from future potential debts, etc.
Once, in church, I began to question the existence of God, is He really exist or just a conspiration to cover human disabilities of defining how nature works. That was the moment when I thought I needed to STOP. and let the only bond between me and God (faith) made its way.
This problem is also the main reason I'm blogging again, to make sure my thought(s) won't waste away, so I can share my aspiration whether it's right or wrong.
The third one, I started to read thick novels written in English. It is proved to help my main purpose this year, to increase my poor skilled English, and it is a fun getaway.
The fourth one, I started to watch everything about animals. I just realized, that we, human, are animals too, only with bigger functional brains.We're not the only living things, and to learn from other living things is one of things we capable of.
I love watching how animals survive, how they act, how they fight, how they eat, how they....... Everything! That's why I bought "Life of Pi" because there's a Bengal Tiger in the cover, fortunately, the book itself is worth buying, in fact, very worthy. Of all the books I read, this was the only one that was able to provide my brain with goodness.
One of the lessons I learned from 'Life of Pi' is the main subject that separate human and animals is the use of instinct. Animals, without astounding intelligence, their only way to fulfill the tendency of all living things (that is to live) is only by using their instinct, that's why their instinct is so strong, they'll know whether you're harmless or a threat, when to strike or when to stay quiet, where is save and where's not, in the other side, us as human, with further developed brain, fed up with our own thoughts, (even though we sometimes still have instinct) that's why war and disaster happened.
'Life of Pi' also taught me that human and animals are not really that different. In their social structure, there are alpha animals, beta, gamma, etc., and the last one are omega animals. Alpha animals are the leader of the group and famous for their superiority, on the contrary, Omega animals are more like the outcast of the group. This social structure is used by human to make an entertainment, that is Circus. The trainers act as the super-alpha leader of the group, they must not fear the animals, they have to show that they are more ferocious and able to provide benefits for the socially lower animals
The way the bond between the trainer and the animals appears, is the same way most of us are living everyday. Animals (usually Omega used for easiness) feel that they need to make a bond with this super-alpha trainer, they are willing to do everything as long as they have special connection with the trainer, they need it to fulfill their necessity of food and protection.
As human, most of us, honestly are searching for attention and popularity, it's not a mistake for want-ing to be popular, because it's in our blood. Popularity provide us with comfort and the feel of secure, and to optimally develop and to be healthy, we need it. So, don't judge a person because they want to be popular, just remind them not to be too obsessive, because like you, they just want to live with comfort, and trying to be popular is an instinct we were born with to satisfy the tendency of living with serenity.
That's it for now.
